Sunday, January 30, 2005

ANGEL

THE ANGEL OF MY DREAMS

HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE,

HOW PURE YOU ARE IN SPIRIT,

HOW I YEARN TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS,

HOW I LONG TO KISS YOUR LIPS,

HOW I LONG TO SEE YOU

HOW I MISS YOU DURING OUR BUSY TIMES.

I PROMISE YOU MY TRUE SELF.

I DREAM OF YOU DURING MY WAKING HOURS.

THE ANGEL OF MY DREAMS...

Monday, January 24, 2005

JUST ANOTHER DAY

WELL, WHERE DO I START. LIKE I SAY IN MOST OF MY BEGINNINGS, IT'S BEEN A WHILE. I'M NOT SO GOOD IN KEEPING UP WITH THIS BLOG. I WISH I WAS, BUT LIFE JUST GETS IN THE WAY. I CAN'T COMPLAIN IT'S BEEN AN INTERESTING MONTH SO FAR. I'VE REALIZED A FEW THINGS ABOUT ME THAT I THOUGHT I WOULDN'T REALIZE UNTIL LATER ON IN MY LIFE. THE MAIN THING I'VE REALIZED IS THAT GROWING UP... SUCKS ASS! WELL, MOST OF IT DOES ANYWAY. CURRENTLY MORE ON THE WORST SIDE OF THINGS THAN GOOD. IT'S ALMOST LIKE SOMEONE IS LETTING YOU BE HAPPY FOR A WHILE, THEN LETTING YOU SEE THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE WHOLE SPECTRUM. THIS POINT KINDA LEADS TO MOST OF THE SITUATIONS CURRENT WITH ME. I DON'T REALLY WISH TO FINISH THIS POINT RIGHT NOW, JUST WANTED TO STATE IT FOR LATER PURPOSES.

ANYWAYS, I MOVED AGAIN, I DON'T REMEMBER MENTIONING THAT LATELY, BUT I HOPE THAT THE NEW SITUATION WILL WORK OUT FOR THE BEST. I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WOULDN'T MIX WORK DRAMA AND HOME LIFE, BUT DAMN! ROOMING WITH A FRIEND FROM WORK AND BRINGING ALL WORK ISSUES HOME. DAMN!!!!! I REALLY HATE THAT MORE THAN ANYTHING. IT'S DAMN ANNOYING AND YOU JUST CAN'T GET AWAY FROM IT. "NOTE TO SELF... DON'T INVOLVE MY LIFE WITH WORK PEOPLE UNLESS EXCEPTIONS ARE MEET."


Sunday, January 02, 2005

ALRIGHT, THIS IS STARTING TO PISS ME OFF!!!

THIS WILL BE THE SECOND TIME I AM ATTEMPTING TO WRITE THIS BLOG.

I WAS ALMOST DONE WITH THE LAST ONE THEN BOOM, WHAT THE &$#! LIKE I WAS SAYING EARLIER, IT'S BEEN AN INTERESTING FEW DAYS. I HAVE BEEN SPEAKING WITH THIS ONE GIRL WHO'S A LOT YOUNGER THAN I, WHO I THOUGHT WAS REALLY COOL, BUT I COME TO FIND OUT THAT SHE WAS ALSO SPEAKING TO SOMEONE ELSE. I INVITED HER A FEW DAYS BEFORE NEW YEARS EVE TO COME VISIT WITH ME TO A FRIENDS HOUSE, SHE SAID THAT IT WAS COOL, BUT THE DAY OFF SHE FLAKE ON ME. I'M ALSO SURE THAT ME BRINGING UP THE CONVERSATION, THE DAY OF NEW YEAR'S EVE, THAT I KNEW THAT SHE WAS ALSO SPEAKING TO SOMEONE ELSE WASN'T A BIG HIT. IT WAS FUNNY TO ME BECAUSE SHE WAS SPEECHLESS ABOUT IT. I'M GLAD THAT, THE WHOLE THING IS OVER BEFORE IT EVEN STARTED (THE BEGINNING THAT NEVER STARTED). I WENT AND VISITED MY FRIEND JOANNE AT THE BEGINNING FOR NEW YEAR'S EVE, IT'S ALWAYS NICE VISIT WITH HER. I FINALLY MEET HER BOYFRIEND AND HE SEEMS GOOD FOR HER. I CALLED MY FRIEND BLAKE WHO'S IN VIRGINIA FOR TRAINING, BUT HIM AND I ARE PLAYING PHONE TAG FOR THE MOMENT. I ALSO CALLED MISS HOLLY TO WISH HER A HAPPY NEW YEAR, WHO'S IN FLORIDA. I HAVE TO TRULY SAY THAT I DO MISS HER. SHE'S JUST ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO LEAVES A GOOD IMPRESSION ON YOU.

AFTER I LEFT JOANNE'S PARTY, I WENT AND PICKED UP THE CLAN (JUAN, AMY, AND TRAVIS) TO GO TO ANOTHER PARTY. WHEN I GOT THERE, THERE WAS SOME FIGHT THAT AMY JUST BECAME A HAUS IN. THIS GIRL, SHE'S SOMETHING ELSE, I WOULDN'T WANNA FUCK WITH HER WHEN SHE'S SERIOUSLY DRUNK AND ANGRY. ANYWAY, WE GO TO THIS OTHER PARTY AND AS SOON AS I WALK IN I SEE THIS GIRL WHO WAS SUPPOSE TO GO WITH ME TO MY FRIEND JOANNE'S PARTY, WITH THE DUDE. IT'S WAS JUST SO FUNNY. THE WHOLE NIGHT, TRAVIS WAS JUST RAGGED ON THOSE TWO INFRONT OF THEM. I HAVE TO SAY, I NEVER HAD A BETTER TIME LAUGHING MY ASS OFF. I KINDA FEEL BAD ABOUT IT, BUT OH WELL. BESIDES, TRAVIS WAS DRUNK... THAT WOULD BE MY ONLY EXCUSE. HE KNOW THAT I WAS HURT ABOUT THAT AND HE WAS JUST WATCHING OUT FOR ME.

THEN DAMN, MORE DRAMA UNFOLDED WHEN THE HOST OF THE PARTY EXPLODED IN A FIGHT WITH HER ROOMMATE. THAT DRAMA IS STILL CURRENTLY BEING PLAYED OUT AS WE SPEAK, BUT I HAVE TO GO NOW. SOME OF US STILL HAVE TO WORK FOR A LIVING. PEACE OUT<<->>

IT'S BEEN A LEARNING EXPERIENCE THIS PAST YEAR, FROM THE MOVING, TO THE BREAKUP, TO LOSING MY DAD, TO THE PARTING OF FRIENDS, AND TO ME BEING COMPLETELY ALONE. I HAVE TO SAY THAT I TRULY HAVE GROWN THIS PAST YEAR AND I CAN ONLY MAKE THIS NEW ONE... MY OWN. THAT DOESN'T MEAN I WON'T BE CONFUSED AND FRUSTRATED WITH RELATIONSHIPS OR WITH MY THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DREAMS, LOVE, AND MY FUTURE. THERE IS WAY TO MUCH LIFE OUT THERE, GETTING IN BETWEEN THE IN BETWEENS. NOW IS MY TIME TO MOVE FORWARD.